What I Want Out of My Life
- sarahmichaelblogs
- Sep 25, 2014
- 5 min read
I have been thinking more and more lately that my life lacks meaning. What is it I'm working towards? What do I want for my future? What do I hope to accomplish? No immediate thoughts or ideas came to mind. That instantly struck a chord.
Surely at some point I had hopes, dreams, and ambitions...right? I just needed to remember. So here I am sat at my laptop writing them down so as to never forget again. And here they are:
Education. As smart as I think I might be, I'm really just more of a smart ass. I used to have this unquenched thirst for knowledge. I wanted to learn anything and everything I could. I read at least one book a week and my idea of good TV was anything on Discovery, History, or PBS. So why did I give up? It wasn't too difficult. Sure life happened and some things got in the way, but why haven't I gone back yet? I honestly don't have an answer for that. I completely gave up one of my favorite things in the world. Learning. This is a void in my life that can easily be filled. So... I'm going back to school. I want to study a subject I know absolutely nothing about so I won't lose interest, hopefully. Better yet why not dive into the field of education? That way I can do what I love. Absorb as much information as possible and share it. Teaching. Maybe that's where I belong. So first life goal is to earn a degree. Any degree. I'm thinking Master's? Doctorate? We'll see.
Travel.
Wanderlust. We've all heard of it and we all have at least a little bit of it wrapped up inside us. I always thought by now I'd be backpacking across Europe. I haven't stepped outside of the U.S. once. Not true, living near the border, I've been to Mexico once or twice for cheaper prescription glasses. Exciting. Places that top my personal must-see list include: Greece, Australia, South Africa, Italy, Brazil, and England. Actually, I REALLY want to live at least one year in London. Study abroad maybe? I have no idea why London of all places, I've just always been fascinated by it. (Thanks Harry Potter) Whether I start now by backpacking or studying abroad or start my retirement off with an exciting trip to Rio, I'm going to see the world, at least some of it. Ok, at least half the places on my list or more. I guess I better get over my fear of flying.
Business.
Teaching will be great and all, but teachers also receive a low salary. To supplement that, I need a side job. More than a side job, I want to start my own business. To be my own boss would be a dream come true. All I need is a product or service to sell. But what? Photography? Maybe. A clothing line? How cool would that be? My own thrift store would be amazing to have. An interior design company would be fun. I could start up my own magazine. All of these I've considered and they all sound perfect for me. Maybe with that degree I can narrow down my selection and make this business happen. *Ring Ring!* "Hello, may I speak with the owner?" "This is she"- Yes, I can see it now.
Romance.
OK. It's time to get cheesy I think. I thought I had been in love before, but clearly not. I want to find that person that I feel completes me. But more important, I want to find that person that feels I complete THEM. I want a man who respects me and appreciates everything I am. A guy who will be like, "Check out my awesome chick with all her beauty, kindness, and intelligence radiating from her amazingly small pores". OK, so maybe he won't say that exactly, but you get the point. I want a real love. I want a "If you eat my last fry, I will literally stab you with my fork" kind of love. I want a "Let's stay in and watch cartoons and cuddle even though we haven't showered in 2 days" kind of love. I want to be told I'm beautiful every day and to be kissed so often it might get annoying. I want a man who will support all my dreams. Who will help me reach my education, career, and travel goals. I've always been the cheerleader for all my exes, standing back and watching them succeed. I want someone to be my cheerleader. I want us to succeed together. I want to fight when we disagree. I want someone who's not afraid to tell me I'm wrong and who's not afraid to admit they were wrong. An argument is OK as long as at the end of the day we both say I'm sorry and I love you. I want someone to look at me and think, "Yep, she's the one" before I've even thought about that 'next step'. I want someone to date me with the intention of marrying me someday. I want our own goofy, nontraditional, misunderstood, epic version of Happily Ever After. You're probably thinking, "Her standards are way too high", but I disagree. I've had lower standards. I've settled. That's just not what I want anymore. There's someone out there for everyone which means there's someone out there who fits my criteria. I can wait. Someday my prince WILL come.
Family.
Once I've received my degree, become settled into my career, and married my dream guy, I want to raise some youngsters of my own. I don't have a number in mind or any gender preferences. However, I have one desire that could prove to be a challenge. I want to adopt. I want to adopt most, if not all of my children. There are so many beautiful children in the world without families to call their own. I want to change that for at least one little one. Adoption is not for everyone. Some people even go as far as saying they could never love a child as their own that they did not conceive themselves. I definitely can. Maybe this makes me weird. But I do not see how you could not fall in love and want to care for someone as pure and innocent and wonderful as a child. To be a mother to the motherless is my absolute ultimate dream. I need to make all the above listed goals become reality so that I can make this dream a reality someday. This is what is most important. This is what I want out of my life.
Xx Sarah Michael
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